Midder Coop

okay so this is getting WAY out of hand! i cant deal with this anymore, you have taken this to a whole new level. you dont even know me yet youre in love with me. how is that possible? please explain that to me. how can you be in love with somebody you have never met? you talk about how we're going to date when i move back and how we'll be the "perfect couple". no im sorry it doesnt just work like that. i have a boyfriend i want and plan to keep. and even if i wasnt going out with him i wouldnt go out with you because; one, you live all the way in cali and two, if my best friend doesnt want me to go out with someone then i wont. shes the one who knows you, like actually knows you. i have never met you and i dont see it happening anytime soon. i dont know what you keep thinking? that someday ill show up out of the blue? this is reality not youre wildest dreams. im cinderella but you are not my prince charming now why is that so hard for you to understand. its just a simple concept you need to grasp.

H&B::F&A
taylorbam:)

PERFECTION

ive created another blog i want you guys to follow along with this one. its called perfection.
heres the link::
http://bamsfantasy.blogspot.com/

all i want for chistmas is...

my christmas list::
in general i want an iTouch, Couture Couture by Juicy Couture, clothes, and MONEY$$$
best friends: idk something best friends would get best friends
random friends: idk something random friends would get random friends
boyfriend: flowers (roses), Juicy Couture necklace(or heart lock and key necklace)
relatives: iTunes money, gift cards, and the expensive stuff my friends wont get me
mom: another boxer [ i love you Ging. RIP]

haha im not expect this...its just a wish list

H&B::F&A
taylorbam:)

p.s. and santa i want socks!

my LOVELY (<-sarcasm) day

well today was a very interesting day.
-go to school read my book talk to my friends and bf
-1st period read my book and listened to mrs wood complain
-see fried rice and my biffel
-2nd talk to ashley nicole lauren and victoria in fashion marketing
-3rd read book in theatre
-meet bf and walk tater to class
-4a go eat lunch with sethykins and alex and david
-4b meet up wit marissa and find out info abt my bf that i would have rather him told me
-meet up with friends walked away from bf
-5th cried and talked to luis and miguel abt the sitch
-go meet friends and bf, talk to bf abt it
-6th talked to matt, david, taylor, nick, and sara in physics
-met up wit friends, no bf
-7th played monopoly, beat garrison
-went outside to spot with friends, walk to bus, got home ate popcorn and got here.

H&B::F&A
taylorbam:)

wow i really need to come on here more often

so my friends are not being very supportive of my decisions. i dont blame them after everything that has happened, but still.
once more im having boyfriend complications. it seems as though i have entered into the horrible off-and-on releationship with matt. we have already broken up 3 times. the first two times i broke up with him and the third (if you can count it) he broke up with me.
okay so let me fill you in on everything::
one day we were staying after school and our friend caleb was like lets go to improv club. so we went and thats were me and matt met. i originally liked alan and then somehow me and matt started texting a lot and he started to like me. then we started hanging out [kinda] a lot and then he started liking me more and i kinda liked him [not a lot] but i guess enough to give him a chance.
the first time he wasnt even acting like a boyfriend. we didnt even hold hands no one even thought we were going out. and thats why i broke up with him. he wanted a second chance so i gave him one. it was november 6th. we went out for 3 weeks and then i broke up with him because, well because he said something that really freaked me out and i didnt know what to do and i cut and run. i realize that now that was a bad idea and i wish i didnt break up with him in the first place. on december 3 i asked him if i could this time have a second chance. he said yes then three or so hours later he broke up with me. i honestly was hurt, becuase this time i really wanted to try to make it work and i dint plan on breaking up with him for a stupid reason. he told me he wanted the weekend to think about it and i said that that was okay. so today [sunday dec 6] he told me that he wanted to give it another shot. so now were going back out:) and its ironic because its still the 6th. we've basically gone out for a month now so we might as well still go by november 6...but idk.

just take me on the floor

oh WOW!!! its been a long time since ive been on here!
so let me give you a nutshell of everything that has happened since i last talked to you, my fellow bloggers:
-uhm where to start..where to start?
-uhm well i have a boyfriend:) his name is Matt Duhe...(wow i actually capitalized)lol
-he's a sophomore but i dont care
-uhm im grounded so i cant hang out with him:(
-uhm...idk anything else important

F&A::WIFM?::AYHN?
taylorbam :)

save a band-aid suck some blood

Can't wait till New Moon!!! 11.20.09
transformers rise of the fallen was........AWESOME!!!!!
i havent been one her lately and i prolly wont be for a while. kim is now home and she will be everyday.

txt me if ya wanna chat. 678.896.7509

H&B::F&A
taylorbam :)

Micheal Jackson

oh yea., he died yesterday, June 24, 2009 at age 50 from cardiac arrest. now all those little boys are now safe....aw so sad....umm, yeah read the Oprah blog. its kind of long, but its worth it.

H&B::F&A
taylorbam :)

Oprah Winfrey

Okay, first before you say anything about Oprah, she is the shiz! so I was watching it last night and is was frikn intense as hell!! This mom left her TWO or THREE [2-3]year-old in a HUNDRED AND TWO [102] degree hot car for EIGHT [8] hours while she was at work!! Her daughter had pealing pale white skin and she was at the mouth. It's crazy to think what people do when overwhelmed. They just don't pay attention, it's like there life is set in cruise control. This one mother was doing the laundry and when she was pulling the clothes out of the dryer she pulled out their cat! She had killed her daughters cat. Another mother had had the roughest day and she had put her son down for a nap and she rested on the couch. She heard her son rustling in the crib through the baby monitor. She was just so tired and exhausted she just wanted her son to go back to sleep so she could rest. He kept rustling and then she heard scrathing noises and she knew that something wasnt right. Normally, she would have went up to check on him when he first started making noises. After awhile, he was still fussing, so she finally went up to check on him and his face was bright red, and the baby monitor cord was rapped around his throat.
People get overwhelmed easily, but it's no excuse to having your child die or almost die because, "you just weren't feeling yourself". When you're a mom you have to care for your child, hatever it means you need to be there for them, especially when they are young. They cannot mange by themselves. They are far to young for you not to pay attention to them twenty-four/seven [24/7]. Their life is in your hands.

H&B::F&A
taylorbam :)

summerfest

So my friend Lexi [kump] is in Wisconsin for a while for reasons that are unknown to me. lol. so summerfest starts in on the 25th...WHAT?! you don't know what semmerfest is?! okay then, let me tell you. Summerfest is the worlds largest music festival that is held yearly in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. On Saturday Sara Evans is playing on at 10:00p and me and Lexi had planned to go see her then I would have spent the night at where ever she is staying. I asked my daddy last night and he said no becuase he doesn't know Lexi or her father, nor does he feel "comfortable" with me going to a summerfest alone...with Lexi and possibly her daddy and 35925629856 million other people...hmm. so I'm not allowed to go so me and Lexi need to find some other way to hang out. So possibly on friday she will spend the night at my place then saturday we'll...well we will do something till she has to go. lol.

watching Sonny With A Chance and I cant focus on the blog.

PCE::F&A
taylorbam :)

WIFM?::AYHN?

figure it out yourself. its no that hard. think about it.

F&A::WIFM?::AYHN?
taylorbam :)

Junior year!!!!

So the other night....last night, me and Tater were talking and we randomly started talking about next year, JUNIOR YEAR!!!! WOW! I can't believe we about to be juniors!! We were talking about how she's going to be driving me/us to the mall right after school and was like OKAY:) Then I thought we should once a month, every month, go get our nails done! I told her that since I'm going to be in the car and she's going to be driving me places, that I would help her pay for gas. Then I was like, umm...I kind of dont have any money so we decided that we really should get a job. We need the coolest job ever! and that we should work together at the same place. We were thinking like Starbucks or a clothing store...HELLO!.!.!....EMPLOYEE DISCOUNT!!!! The store we first thought about rue21, we both LOVE that place, but its not in the mall. WE need to be at the mall so when its our break...we will already be at the mall! Smart thinking, i know. I thouht about American Eagle and Hollister, but Tater doesn't shop there. Then I thought of the COOLEST most AWESOMEST job ever and EVERYONE who is ANYONE would be jealous! That place of awesome working-ness would be...BUILD-A-FREAKING-BEAR workshop!!! Marissa had informed me that she has a deffinate job working at this expensive jean store and she could probably get me a job there. She is friends with the owner and she goes to our church. So when I get back I will befriend her and get she will like me and we will become besties and I will get a job. :) If not, I'll work at Starbucks. :) We will all get jobs at the mall so we will all be in the same "area" and we could visit each other on our breaks :)

F&A::WIFM?::AYHN?
taylorbam :)

Through thick and thin

as you have noticed, I havent really been posting blogs and this blog because I have been preoccupied with my new blog, http://www.bamisrandom.blogspot.com/ , if you are not already following it please do so now :) but as I was saying, one of your fellow bloggers has FINALLY posted a blog, yes, I am talking about tatermarie. in her latest blog she mentions that she doesnt know the difference between thick and thin, and I'm pretty sure most of you dont either. her, let me explain it to you.

thick is when you're going through really bad times and thin is also when you're going through really bad times. they are both bad, an example of think is when you and a best friend(s) get into a really big fight and are no longer talking and this happenes right before your math final and all in the same week your boyfriend of 7 monthes breaks up with you because he feels he needs a change in his life. thin is when someone really close to you dies or you just went through a really bad period in life and you just feel like giving up beacuse it seems as if there's nothing left for you in life. that's why it's called thin, there is almost nothing left you feel you need to like for. thick is called thick because there is a bunch of stuff piled on you and you cant handle any more.

hope I help clear any confusion you might of had.

F&A::WIFM?::AYHN?
taylorbam :)

hey my fellow bloggers...follow my new blog as well as this one :)
http://www.bamisrandom.blogspot.com/

All-gee-ah-bra dos

AYYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAAYYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay, let me explain the happiness::
Wednesday was my algebra II final, i was so nervous about it and really scared i wasnt going to pass. i had to get a 77 at the least to pass. after and during the time i was taking the final i was thinking, wow this is actually A LOT easier than i thought it would be. but there was also some question on there that i had no freaking clue as to what they were talking about so i tried best, but in the end i guessed on moved on to the next question. and to be honest, there was this one problem that i kinda knew how to do...it was the sigmas...and i DID NOT want to do them at all. i HATE sigmas!!!!! but after i was done i had a really good feeling that i got a low B, maybe a high C.

and now i am OFFICAILLY done with math for the summer!!!

the other day i got a phone call from my mother saying she got the progress report. her tone was very monotone so i was really scared. then once she said that i got a 70 i freaking screamed with joy!!!!! i was/am so happy that i passed!!!!!! yeah!!! now i dont have to move to texas and go to school at my dads!!! im going to be at Mill Creek next year!!!!!

F&A
taylorpaige :)

ballz and weinerz!!!!

okay dont get me wrong i love marissa to death!!!! i relly do. she is one of the greatest friends i could ever have. and i mean that too. but sometimes..AGHHHH!H!H!H!H!H!H!!!!!!!

im in my bikini now and we're going to go into her hot tub now...even though its not thursday yet ;) lol...you wouldnt understand...its a mtch kinda thing. your not cool enuff to under stand...



okay pce

ps if u havent RSVPed yet...do it do it now!!!!!!

taylor paige :)

(41*32+54/2-1)-1336 days left of school!!!!

gahh i just finished the world history final. tha thing was sooooo freaking hard!!!!!!!!!!

i have tanseys final next...its gunna be easy. marissa will prolly copy off me like she does with all tanseys tests. lol.

plans::

monday::
-wear matching teal tank top with marissa
-world history final
-write this blog
-study for algebra II final
-go see pickles;
give him party invitation
-web design final
-eat favorite chips with favorite person (seth) jk...u too marissa
-school gets out
-stay after to get help for algebra II final
-get home study for algebra II final
-make SNICKERDOODLES!!
-study for algebra II final

tuesday::
-wear pjs!!
-algebra II final
-food party in act;
im bringing SNICKERDOODLES!!!!
(yes i'll make extra for you guys)
-go home make party music playlist
-study for language arts final
-do more prep work for party

wedenesday::
-wear soffee shorts...
(need to get some from coco or tater)
and bikini under a white shirt
-spanish II final
-talk to taylor $ims and maizah
-eat favorite chips
-chill with friends
-language arts final
-talk to lexi about six flags and party
-SCHOOL IS OFFICAILLY OVER!!!!!!!!
-SUMMER OFFICAILLY STARTS!!!!!!!!
-walk home with marissa coco and who knows who else.
-do things that we do after school.
-go to marissa and sleep over
-to party prep work

thursday ::
-wake up at marissa's do some party prep work
-a couple people come early to help with party prep work
-PARTY!!!!!!!!!
-marissa coco and lexi sleep over at my house

friday::
-marissa coco and lexi wake up at my house
-pickles seth and josh show up at my house
-158753153467 hour drive
(well its not really that long..an hour or so)
-SIX FLAGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-get back at like 3 am
(lol not really...it will be like 11:30)
-pickles seth and josh go home
-marissa coco and lexi sleep over

saturday::
-marissa comes with me to my nana's house. family does something for my birthday.
-idk what else happens

sunday::
-leave for wisconsin.

sometime in june::
-leave for texas

sometime over the summer::
-marissa visits me in texas

sometime in august::
-come home for JUNIOR YEAR!!!!
-school starts..blah :/




well thats that in a really big nutt shell


p.s. you know you guys wanted to know all that! :)

love you!
forever and always,
taylor paige:)

to Garrett FREAKING Walling

me and marissa want to tell you a little something...
you really need to allow us to post comments on you freaking blog.
we were going to leave you a very amazing comment regaurding a blog, but now you will never see it!!!

i love you!!!!

see marissa's blog.

stress

i dont know wat to do because its the end of the year there is only four [4] more days till school is officially over and i have a sixty-eight [68] in algebra II and i need to get at least a eighty-three [83] on my final to pass the class. if i fail i have to move to texas. and if i move to texas the only good thing that would come of this would be that i would be in georgia for summers and long breaks, but i would rather be here during school time rather than bee here over the summer. all this freaking school stress is enough stress as it is and with pickles [him from previous blog] doing this it doesnt help at all. he's just add more stress than what i already have.

my head hurts so freaking bad and i just want to go lie in a corner and cry myself to sleep. my head has been hurting for two [2] days straight and the fact that i havent eat anything in three [3] days might be contributing to my head hurting but i cant eat when im stressed and sad.

idk i just wish some one could tell me what do do.

just a 6?

Garebear told me too so i am.
haven't bogged lately...ill update u later....
but right now i have something on my mind...

so I'm a 6 in his mind. he's like a 8 close 9.
is 6 good or bad? well i guess its better than a 3...but its really close to 5 so i guess thats what bothers me.
usually with guys I'll just meet them and I'll like them [as like a 2] because it was fun flirting and having fun...like when i first met him i didn't like him like him, i like him as a friend [even though we met in the most random way...[a 'Taylor' kind of way] Taylor as in me, Taylor, and my best friend Taylor] ill tell u the story of how we met later] so anyways as i was saying i only thought of him as a friend at first. then i would see him in the halls i would give him a hug and continue on with my life. then i went to my friends church and she told me that he went there as well and i was like YAY! in my head. i simply told her oh thats cool. i didn't tell her that i that i wanted to go was because of him. at that time he ranked about a 5. that was because by that time we had talked a good amount so i knew a good amount about his life and his past [i don't like where his past led him at all] so once we got to church i saw him and he smelled SOO good! we sat next to each other and half way through the service he was a 6 close to 7. when we [me and my friend] got home from church i thought about telling her that i liked him, [I've liked him longer but that was when i started RELE liking him] but i didn't because i thought she would judge me because of his past[and present] and i thought she would laugh at me because i liked a freshman. i dont care about the fact that he's a freshman its just a freaking grade. if he was short that would be a different story but he's not, he's actually really tall. Tuesday after school he stayed after too and before he got there i was just talking to Garebear and i told him how i felt and how we met and stuff and honestly Garebear's the only one who I've truly talked to about him and Garebear has really helped me. i love Garebear he's like a brother! after me and Garebear kinda talked he texted me saying he was in the commons and so i went out and met him and when we were outside he would hold my hand he would hold me and...yatta yatta. so wednesday[today] after what happened yesterday i wanted to see him cuz after yesterday he was a freaking 8 close to 9. once i got home i called Garebear and asked him to do a favor for me.
the favor was to text him asking on a scale of 1-10 where i ranked. he replied back with a 6. Garebear asked why not less why not more. he replied back with a kinda, she's kinda clingy.
i dont know anymore i really dont. sorry for being"clingy" after what happened yesterday! maybe i just shouldnt get close to anyone anymore.

marissa

is so lazy!!!! she'll be up in her room in her house and and she'll need to ask her parentals a question and she'll freaking call them!!!! she'll pick up her cell phone and call her freaking house when she's in it and she'll ask away. she has two freaking legs!! its not like she's crippled or anything...[its like shes in a wheel chair...i would push her down the stairs][jkjkjkj] well im going to go and show marissa its not that hard to walk down stairs now....

pce
bambam

WHY?!?!? if you actually care you'll read it all....

Why cant i get myself to break up with him. I want to, I have wanted to for a while (well only like 2 days, but watever.) but i just cant. I dont know why. I know he doesnt care about me and that he's using me, so why cant i break up with him? i dont love him any more and looking back i cant believe i did. you never see a persons true colors until about 2 or so months in the relationship and honestly he is a perverted little ass who doesnt care about things except getting what he wants...which most likely involves something sexual or something like that. yeah he likes my ass and yeah he likes my boobs but does he actually like ME? No! well he hasnt said it to my face, but he told someone, and he defiantly doesnt show it or act it. I just want him to be upfront and say it to my face. is it really that hard? why is he dragging it on still? better question, why am I still dragging it on? i really wish i knew. There is just no feelings anymore, and im not saying i dont still care about him, because i do as a person, but nothing more. i actually realized this earlier in our relationship but i didnt want to admit it to myself and then once our relationship got more physical, than emotional, i decided to test him and see if he actually cared about me as a person first, before i let him go farther. and if he would have at least acted like he cared and showed something like he cared he might have gotten farther but i guess it didnt mean that much to him. I need to talk to him and hear him say it to my face, not me reading a about it in a convo that he has no idea that i read. well i hope i can do something this weekend and if i can i hope he can too because it would be the best time to do end when there are no distractions and no time limit.

well ill blog later. pce
Luv TBT

p.s. Julia if you are reading this, call me please :)

wow...long time

so its been a long time since i've been on here and i got a lot to say and this might look really long, but its worth reading.

im going to do different, seperate blogs for every catagory, as you can tell i already have, but im just writing this and so all these other blogs im talking bout do not exist at this moment in time...

so this blog really isnt as big as it was going to be because im not going to tell you everything all in one blog, like i was going to...so yea pce


now my cuzin is being stupid and is looking over my shoulder and reading it out loud...well he was and now he stopped i think i is reading what im
luv T.B.T.