wow i really need to come on here more often

so my friends are not being very supportive of my decisions. i dont blame them after everything that has happened, but still.
once more im having boyfriend complications. it seems as though i have entered into the horrible off-and-on releationship with matt. we have already broken up 3 times. the first two times i broke up with him and the third (if you can count it) he broke up with me.
okay so let me fill you in on everything::
one day we were staying after school and our friend caleb was like lets go to improv club. so we went and thats were me and matt met. i originally liked alan and then somehow me and matt started texting a lot and he started to like me. then we started hanging out [kinda] a lot and then he started liking me more and i kinda liked him [not a lot] but i guess enough to give him a chance.
the first time he wasnt even acting like a boyfriend. we didnt even hold hands no one even thought we were going out. and thats why i broke up with him. he wanted a second chance so i gave him one. it was november 6th. we went out for 3 weeks and then i broke up with him because, well because he said something that really freaked me out and i didnt know what to do and i cut and run. i realize that now that was a bad idea and i wish i didnt break up with him in the first place. on december 3 i asked him if i could this time have a second chance. he said yes then three or so hours later he broke up with me. i honestly was hurt, becuase this time i really wanted to try to make it work and i dint plan on breaking up with him for a stupid reason. he told me he wanted the weekend to think about it and i said that that was okay. so today [sunday dec 6] he told me that he wanted to give it another shot. so now were going back out:) and its ironic because its still the 6th. we've basically gone out for a month now so we might as well still go by november 6...but idk.