Why cant i get myself to break up with him. I want to, I have wanted to for a while (well only like 2 days, but watever.) but i just cant. I dont know why. I know he doesnt care about me and that he's using me, so why cant i break up with him? i dont love him any more and looking back i cant believe i did. you never see a persons true colors until about 2 or so months in the relationship and honestly he is a perverted little ass who doesnt care about things except getting what he wants...which most likely involves something sexual or something like that. yeah he likes my ass and yeah he likes my boobs but does he actually like ME? No! well he hasnt said it to my face, but he told someone, and he defiantly doesnt show it or act it. I just want him to be upfront and say it to my face. is it really that hard? why is he dragging it on still? better question, why am I still dragging it on? i really wish i knew. There is just no feelings anymore, and im not saying i dont still care about him, because i do as a person, but nothing more. i actually realized this earlier in our relationship but i didnt want to admit it to myself and then once our relationship got more physical, than emotional, i decided to test him and see if he actually cared about me as a person first, before i let him go farther. and if he would have at least acted like he cared and showed something like he cared he might have gotten farther but i guess it didnt mean that much to him. I need to talk to him and hear him say it to my face, not me reading a about it in a convo that he has no idea that i read. well i hope i can do something this weekend and if i can i hope he can too because it would be the best time to do end when there are no distractions and no time limit.
well ill blog later. pce
Luv TBT
p.s. Julia if you are reading this, call me please :)