just a 6?

Garebear told me too so i am.
haven't bogged lately...ill update u later....
but right now i have something on my mind...

so I'm a 6 in his mind. he's like a 8 close 9.
is 6 good or bad? well i guess its better than a 3...but its really close to 5 so i guess thats what bothers me.
usually with guys I'll just meet them and I'll like them [as like a 2] because it was fun flirting and having fun...like when i first met him i didn't like him like him, i like him as a friend [even though we met in the most random way...[a 'Taylor' kind of way] Taylor as in me, Taylor, and my best friend Taylor] ill tell u the story of how we met later] so anyways as i was saying i only thought of him as a friend at first. then i would see him in the halls i would give him a hug and continue on with my life. then i went to my friends church and she told me that he went there as well and i was like YAY! in my head. i simply told her oh thats cool. i didn't tell her that i that i wanted to go was because of him. at that time he ranked about a 5. that was because by that time we had talked a good amount so i knew a good amount about his life and his past [i don't like where his past led him at all] so once we got to church i saw him and he smelled SOO good! we sat next to each other and half way through the service he was a 6 close to 7. when we [me and my friend] got home from church i thought about telling her that i liked him, [I've liked him longer but that was when i started RELE liking him] but i didn't because i thought she would judge me because of his past[and present] and i thought she would laugh at me because i liked a freshman. i dont care about the fact that he's a freshman its just a freaking grade. if he was short that would be a different story but he's not, he's actually really tall. Tuesday after school he stayed after too and before he got there i was just talking to Garebear and i told him how i felt and how we met and stuff and honestly Garebear's the only one who I've truly talked to about him and Garebear has really helped me. i love Garebear he's like a brother! after me and Garebear kinda talked he texted me saying he was in the commons and so i went out and met him and when we were outside he would hold my hand he would hold me and...yatta yatta. so wednesday[today] after what happened yesterday i wanted to see him cuz after yesterday he was a freaking 8 close to 9. once i got home i called Garebear and asked him to do a favor for me.
the favor was to text him asking on a scale of 1-10 where i ranked. he replied back with a 6. Garebear asked why not less why not more. he replied back with a kinda, she's kinda clingy.
i dont know anymore i really dont. sorry for being"clingy" after what happened yesterday! maybe i just shouldnt get close to anyone anymore.